May 28, 2012

I’ve been doing a few things to try to perk myself up and get out of this weird funk I’ve been in for a while. A change in attitude was warranted.

  • Stopping myself from criticizing everything. I figured if those two over there feel like talking about how smashed they got in the weekend, then let them be. Making fun of them isn’t going to make me any happier. This one’s proved to be the hardest but I’m trying.
  • Accepting that I’m just going to see less of people as I get older and they get busier.
  • Taking a walk when I’m feeling down instead of wallowing in self-loathing. I refuse to sit around and be sad.
  • Trying not to compare myself to others. It’s hard not to feel worthless when your friends are getting internships and offers left right and center but I’ve decided to worry about life after graduation when I’ve actually graduated. No point worrying about something that’s 17 months away.
  • Writing out angry and depressed feelings and thoughts in a book (note: not a diary; I’m not one of those) instead of keeping it in and holding grudges. Sometimes it’s merely a line long but it helps. It’s rather cathartic.
  • Filling my time up by reading more about the world and what not. I feel better about myself by knowing more general knowledge. Go figure.
  • Forcing myself to smile (more than usual anyway; most of the time I still look angry - I swear I’m not).

They’re basic things people tell me all the time; things I should already be doing. Actually putting them into practice instead of my usual ‘like that’s going to make a difference’ attitude has actually aided in putting myself in a better mood.

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May 28, 2012
"Rules of dating: One, be attractive. Two, don’t be unattractive."

— Saturday Night Live

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May 27, 2012

I tend to despise watching films made before 1980 (ed: this is an arbitrary year; I really just mean “old”). I can’t stand the conservative attitudes. I can’t stand the terrible sound; I’ve always said film is 60% sound. I can’t stand the acting, especially actresses. I probably shouldn’t drone on about it. You get my point. With that said, I really loved 12 Angry Men.

This film is about 12 ordinary people sitting in a jury for a murder trial. It opens on the conclusion of hearings in court. A teenager has just been tried for the murder of his father, and the judge sends the jury to deliberate about his guilt or innocence, warning them that the guilty verdict brings mandatory death penalty. Upon seclusion everyone immediately agrees the defendant is guilty. Everyone except one one man.

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May 27, 2012

Weird, funny observation. Sometimes it’s kind of like Ethan and Lily are parents and I’m the kid in this place.

On Saturday before I left to go out Ethan and Lily were sitting on the couch watching a movie and drinking wine. Tonight they cooked and I washed up. They sat on the couch once more drinking their wine, watching a movie while eating olives and cheese. I sat on the ground playing on my phone and ate ice cream.

They both work while I go off to learn. Lily comes home earlier than Ethan (ed: personal experience has led me to believe that the mom usually comes home earlier than the dad…not being sexist here). They sleep somewhat early. I tiptoe around the place at 2am trying not to make a noise. They eat pretty sensibly from what I witness, while I sproadicly eat fatty junk foods and artificial processed meat.

Edit: Ethan says goodnight almost everynight. It’s kind of cute I guess.
Edit: He just said goodnight.

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May 27, 2012

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